A New Beginning: The time of my life

LxndreaSB

it is towards the end of the year and there are lot of things to be thanked for. a lot of ups and downs, a lot of happiness and sometimes sad moments. but when the family is complete, a husband, a father, a mother, a wife and their 3 beautiful children, it is of utmost difficulty to be in a sad mood for long. of course when things go a bit sour with the in-laws or even with the hubs, things do get bad at times.

but this post is not to complain. just to reminisce on the things that had happened in this year. not much posts were up because I realized that i am not comfortable anymore in sharing my deepest thoughts on line. Facebook-ing is enough for me to just give a hint on how i am feeling for the day. but other than day, my journal shall keep me company.

this year was all about survival. especially when i was carrying baby vera. sweet baby girl....

Those were the scary moments of my life. Also those were the moments when i knew who were the people that i can depend on without expecting anything back. as in they give unconditionally.

how i wish that happens in my family now. the problem is something is expected back when they do something for someone else. they just don't drop by without expecting something back. it is sad actually to know this.

how i wish i can sing off my blues. like the glee club do. writing about it sometimes do not catch the true emotion. it is difficult to pin point the correct word or make up the correct sentences for how i feel.

i hope that i will be able to get over this and try to overcome it before it becomes worse. to be able to talk to him without being judgemental is so difficult nowadays. maybe it is both ways anyway. we do not have that level of respect to show to each other to be able to just listen and understand how the other is feeling.

well anyway just to recap on the things that have happened this past week...