i am on a roll..
i think it was yesterday when a sudden flash of nostalgia came back to me. i was reminiscing a lot on my past, and i realised that there were some people whom i had not made peace with. the relationship i had with this people ended so badly until i was traumatised myself and to move on, i went into denial, saying to myself that, that period is over and it will never happen again. well guess what. it comes in waves. and the first few times it came, i drowned.
but now, i was overcome with forgiveness and willingness to go out there and find these people to make amends, or maybe to just close that chapter in my life. it is pretty scary, but i am glad that some of them are married with children or getting married soon or just having a blast with their lives.
these people are within reach, by blogs, by FB, by sms.. but what is stopping me from making the first move. i did made a move a few months back, but the wave crashed on me, and it really backfired. i was not ready to close that particular chapter properly. but am i ready now? i should be right? i have to. else how am i supposed to open other chapters in my book of life?
emo emo..
on a different note, gotta go shopping for Angelus (larger scale) birthday celebration tomorrow. we are gonna have it on the balcony, so i need some candles to light up the place. any other ideas? i can't think of anything. hmmmm...
i think it was yesterday when a sudden flash of nostalgia came back to me. i was reminiscing a lot on my past, and i realised that there were some people whom i had not made peace with. the relationship i had with this people ended so badly until i was traumatised myself and to move on, i went into denial, saying to myself that, that period is over and it will never happen again. well guess what. it comes in waves. and the first few times it came, i drowned.
but now, i was overcome with forgiveness and willingness to go out there and find these people to make amends, or maybe to just close that chapter in my life. it is pretty scary, but i am glad that some of them are married with children or getting married soon or just having a blast with their lives.
these people are within reach, by blogs, by FB, by sms.. but what is stopping me from making the first move. i did made a move a few months back, but the wave crashed on me, and it really backfired. i was not ready to close that particular chapter properly. but am i ready now? i should be right? i have to. else how am i supposed to open other chapters in my book of life?
emo emo..
on a different note, gotta go shopping for Angelus (larger scale) birthday celebration tomorrow. we are gonna have it on the balcony, so i need some candles to light up the place. any other ideas? i can't think of anything. hmmmm...
I haven't made up with a few people also... how lah this?
better clear ur conscience to start a new leaf. :)
it always feels good to me to forgive and then move on.
Sometimes it's very hard for me to make the first move also. I can be very stubborn even when I am in the wrong.
I always try now that I am older to keep the slate clean. Good for you.
I hope the birthday was a blast and that you are having a good week!!:-)
Thanks for dropping by.
Ya, my baby is doing fine.
From now on, he will going for the "cleft"
i will be doing it in KL-Dr.Victor Chong. A quite Famous Plstic Surgeon.
i think it's better to have a forgiving heart...it's easier said than done, we can always forgive, but we can't forget easily...
so what i do is is forgive them, try to forget about it if possible...
trust me, our live will be better :-)
shinade: point taken. it is always good to have a good clean conscience. the birthday was a blast. will post it up since it is the holidays and nobody is around to disturb me. (but it gets lonelier at night..)
keaton: oh ur coming here? bah all the best n my prayers to your baby in his ops, and also to u n wifey. happy hols yah!
june: i think u would feel better if u r willing to talk about the problem after some time. that means there is a room for forgiveness and reconciliation. it is always good to have some sort of closure somehow. happy birthday to rachel!!
i would say take your time dear..once you are ready you will .. but remember we human have diff attitude and perception...if they do not want to forgive and forget...at least you have done your part. :D
GO for it gurl if you are ready. :D