Today I totally feel lousy. As in I feel drowsy, light-headed, dehydrated and the no-semangat kind of feeling.

It is also maybe because of the fact that I will be riding the crimson tide soon, son is having his mid term evaluation, lack of good sleep and also some other kind of weird feelings in me.

Is this what you called being in an 'emo' period?

One more thing also maybe because I am sad that one of my close friend did not make it through a relationship. I mean, I myself having been through a whole lot of broken relationships in the past, would really like this certain friend of mine to find her Prince Charming. She has been through a lot as I was her room mate once upon a time. And I thought that this one was really the one. When I knew about it, my heart really went out to her. It made me feel like what I felt a few years back when I went through one of the hardest break ups of all.

But then we can never stay sad forever. As she said, you fall, you rise back. Of course in the process, heart breaks and insecurity looms you. It is pretty difficult to trust anyone ever again. Not to mention to jump on that 'I Do' wagon, will scare the living daylights out of you.

Like me, I failed once. But the second time I made sure that this is the right one. If not for my sake, it would be for my son's sake and for the sake of the person that I married. Life is too short to make mistakes anymore. Either you go ahead or don't.

I know that we are all different people, with different backgrounds and all. I guess it also takes a lot of praying and luck to really get what you want. Maybe it might not be the exact perfect one, but when you ponder on it and really really ponder, maybe it was under your nose all the time. Without sacrifice, there is no love. But sometimes, love never came first. It came later, after sacrifice.

Entahlah, I am in the state of emo-ness and drunk with loads of heavy-duty emotions in me.

But really I am sad for her and I wish her all the best.