"He has a heart of a lion when it comes to dealing with people of all ages, all races, all personalities and all attitudes. He never lets anybody be bored or sad when he's around because he will always have something up his sleeves.

There will always be a twinkle in his eyes, a smile on his face and he will never fail to lend a helping hand to anyone. He was raised to do his best in everything he does which creates a certain aura of confidence around him wherever he goes. He's definitely a great friend and a reliable person.

In his own way, he exudes his happy-go-lucky attitude and as infectious as his smile, his care-free personality will touch anyone who's in the same room as he is. His friendliness and openness has been mistaken wrongly most of the time but that is who he is - a person who lets everyone in his life so that he will know them by heart and remember them by name.

His life is like an open book and he will never fail to hand out a pen for those who would want to scribble in it, as he will definitely treasure these memories and hold them close in his heart. He loves peace and harmony and do not like to see his friends hurt too long. His willingness to forgive often supercedes his anger in just a matter of time, and would rather have a friend than an enemy.

I know that if he goes blind, he can see with his mind, if he goes deaf, he can go by instinct and if he fails in life, he will just shrug his shoulder, let out a snicker and go on living. When the time comes for him to pass his baton of life to the next generation, he will definitely feel that his life is fulfilled as he has loved and is loved by all the people who matters to him.

He will be remembered by all as the guy-next-door who would always brighten up a dull room, a person who is willing to share everything he's got to those who needs it most but above all he will be loved for his loving nature, his innocence thoughts about life, his naive yet experienced perception on love and his undying urge to make better his way of living and also to those whose life he touches every single day."

I nominated him for Cleo's Eligible Bachelor 2005. This is what I wrote about him. He was shortlisted and went for a photoshoot. However due to technicality, he did not manage to grace the pages of Cleo.
But I just wanted to share this experience I had with Jerry with all of you.

And I want him to know that despite my weaknesses and failures, he still stood by me. In spite of my insecurities and doubt, he still held me by my hand, never letting go. Yes we had a turbulent past and yes there were hiccups here and there. Who doesn't? I lost perspective somehow and I lost myself. Somehow I did not know what was I doing anymore and went on auto pilot. All I knew what to do was to build a fort as high as the sky and shielded myself from hurt, sorrow and anger. My whole world was myself and my son. Noone else.

And so today, I wanna remember how I was 2 years ago. How giving and loving and understanding I was. How I felt when I wrote the write up to Cleo magazine about him. I wanna reminisce on the power of faith and hope that I once had 2 years back. I wanna stop building forts and walls, but instead I wanna build bridges and nurture love, patience and peace.

I want healing from insecurities and doubts, and to allow happiness and joy to come into my life. I have come a long way, and as I told Chegu Carol, life is short and we all should live our life to the fullest, and not linger on to the past for too long. We should learn from it, but never bring the baggages along with us wherever we go. Imagine luggages weighing 30kgs each, and imagine dragging that into every relationship, friendship and courtship. Definitely the ship will sink!!

Anyway I wanna learn to forgive and put it to rest. What important is now and the future. I should not let that out of my head. Learn to forgive. Learn to embrace joy and happiness. Learn to love unconditionally again. This man loves me. I should not be afraid to let him in fully, as love heals and nurtures. Of course there will be hurt now and then, but that is where love intercedes. It teaches one to be patient, understanding but most of all teaches one to hold back unnecessary words that might come out from one's mouth due to our anger.

The love of man is nothing compared to the love of God. He loves unconditionally and He has patience and forgiveness for all mankind. Only with the love of God, will man be able to love. To love his enemies, to love the person who had hurt him, to love those who deserves his love. Again this is the love of God. Have it in your heart at all times. Pray for it, and it will intercede when needed. Amen..

Facing you who brings me new tomorrows,
I thank God for yesterdays,
How they led me to this very hour,
How they led me to this place...

Every touch, every smile,
You have given me in care.
Keep in heart, always I'll,
Now be treasuring everywhere.

And if life should come to just one question,
Do I hold this moment true?
No trace of sadness,
Always with gladness...
'I DO...'

Now a song that speaks of now and ever,
Beckons me to someone new,
Unexpected, unexplored, unseen,
Filled with promise coming through.

In a while, in a word,
You and I forever change,
Love so clear, never blurred,
Has me feeling wondrous, strange,

And if life should come to just one question,
Do I face each moment true?
No trace of sadness, always with gladness,
'I DO...'

Never with sadness...
Always with gladness...
'I...DO....'

It's about a bride who as she walks down the aisle, remembers her past, as she heads towards her future..

It is only 11.30am in the morning and I am already earning gross moolah on an average of at least RM 1000 per month.

It has been a fruitful morning. Now off to my next meeting..

It is now 3.30am. I have been sitting here on my dining table downstairs since 10pm on Monday evening. And it is already Tuesday morning.

It has been raining NON stop since then, and to be technically correct, it has been raining since Monday morning around 9am or so.

Yes yes I know that once upon a time last week, the haze was terrible, with forest fires from Indonesia, and we need rain to clear the air and all. But this is ridiculous.

Not too long ago when I was just barely an adolescent, my home town Tuaran was flooded almost waist deep. I mean the whole town was like a freaking fishing village. And now Kelantan, Johor and most part of the states in Malaysia are flooded.

I mean a few years back, it was the tsunami that hit us. And now on Christmas, flood!

Talking about tsunamis, the earthquake that triggered it could be linked to another major earthquake that occured precisely a year ago (2003) at the other side of the continent. I watched the NGEO channel in Singapore 2 days ago. It sort of created a chain reaction in the Earth movements. If this is true then an earthquake in Japan, could lead to another quake somewhere in the US (for example). Entah la all this. Mother Nature is reacting back. And documentaries like NGEO and "An Inconvenient Truth" by Al Gore, is really trying to open up our senses to how we are treating our own home.

Well, as some people would say. We would not live to see the disasters and consequences. Yah, I know. But what about our younger generations. Do we want them to suffer and pick up what crap we had left behind?

Yayyyy!!

This coming December 26th will be our first family and friends annual Christmas Party. It will be held in our humble home and of course we have invited those in and around Malaysia to come. We have also come up with some programmes for the kids, and hopefully one of my cousins will not fong-fei-kei me as he will become our Santa for the night. Hahahaha..

26122007 will also be a memorable for Jerry and I as we are finally getting our civil registration done. Believe me, it is widely and impatiently anticipated by most of his family members for so long.

Today I did a countdown with him. "Sayang, today is the 10th. It is 16 more days to us getting married. So are you sure, really sure." *grinning widely*

Of course it is really choi choi choi to say all this la. I was just joking. Am I having cold feet, ALREADY? Can't blame me entirely also right. Sigh.. Somebody chase the butterflies away.

But AAaannyway, the Dosses are a merry lot. Hopefully this Christmas would be a memorable one for them too.

We are also in the midst of getting the lights, tree, deco, garden lights, God knows what else we will come up with, up and ready. My future in laws are helping us with the catering so there will be mostly Indian food this time around. But but but, hopefully for next year we will come up with a food theme. Maybe western stuff or something like that.

I am a buff for western food. Pies, turkeys etc.. Nowadays, I mengidam sangat the apple pie my dad's foster parents in Boston made for us. But at that time I was in a culture shock state because it was my first time eating this type of food, so I did not eat much. Shuucks.

Well, (back to the topic) I hope this Christmas would bring a whole lot of cheer, hope and blessing to this new family as well as to all our friends.

Have a Blessed and Merry Christmas everyone.